when people ask you how you are, do you tell them?

do you tell them the truth?

I wonder because sometimes im not okay,

and people have asked, and i haven't told them.

i know im not very sick or in pain,

and there isn't any physical reason to not be okay.

but despite that, sometimes di lang jud ta okay.

And cguro we're not supposed to have it altogether, 

and we're not supposed to know what to do all the time

We've never been at this point before.

My God, especially you.

you've never been in this place in your life before

you've never even imagined you'd be in this place ever

Nothing could have prepared you for this!

So i guess i understand why people can't tell the truth

Its not because they wanted to lie,

Its because no words can describe how they're feeling.

And even when there are, there's just not enough time, or because we feel people don't care that much what we say anyway.

So if you felt good and hopeful today, i wish theres a way for me to know so i could tell you im happy for you.

but if today you had to force yourself to get up, or to eat or to smile, im sorry and ill pray tomorrow is a lot better. but you know what, at least you did.

coz it means you tried, and trying is a good thing.

I don't stop trying. Maybe i try too hard.

But i won't apologize for trying. People always make it sound like its the worst thing when someone "tries too hard", "trying hard".

Maybe. Maybe its bad at some point. But i guess at least in the end "you did everything you could."

And sometimes, that makes all the difference in the world.

That's exactly what someone needs.

But you, you are worth trying.