it's a different kind of grief
when the person you miss is still alive
when they are just a phone call away
when you can still try to chat them in the morning
and before you go to sleep at night.
when you can drive a few hours to their place,

or go to the beach that you both love.

it's a different kind of longing
i never thought i'd ever understand and live it
when they said "it's so near, yet so far"
but i know, you need this to be brave
you need this to grow, to heal, to survive

because not me or anyone knows how it feels to walk in your shoes

no matter how we try, none if us will will ever know the weight that you carry,  the nights of doubts, the exhaustion of constant effort every single day

but even if i cant possibly and completely understand the emotional journey you're on,

i still hope you know that im willing to learn

coz i can imagine how it would feel to be seen, to be understood, to be heard

especially when it feels you're in this alone.

so even if words alone can't bridge the gap between my understanding and your reality,

i promise ill always try

until your heart can let more than words in.

And even if you're at peace with knowing that you are gonna be okay on your own,

there can also be peace in allowing people to stay and love you through all this.

Coz you deserve peace, 

but you also deserve love and joy. 💛