Hey im happy seeing your smile sa imong laag. 🥲

It suits you. Ive always loved ur smile. 😊

I hope you find a reason to smile everyday.

Even on the most mundane things.

Preha ramn sad ta mubo rag kalipay hehe

And you have a grateful heart and inspite of everything

It still is.

Im praying for you always.

Bisan busy sa kaau sa work, you always cross my mind.

Amping ikaw pirme. 🥲🖤

Goodnight.

I hope your day was okay. 🤍

Lami-a i adtog layo oy.

Saka ta balik busay na.

Murag kailangan kog bugnaw nga hangin ug perspective. 

Pwede man ko muadto nga wala ka.

But it's xxx times better if naa ka.

Ikaw na gud na. 🥲 Charot.

I miss you.

Diri nalng ko manabi. Bahalag wa nay mubasa. Lol 

Kay mukatawa rakag dako sa chat 😂😂😂

Mao ra to. Kbye. 😘 

Akong flying kiss di na typo. HAHAHAH 

ilym. Edited. HAHAHA

I miss you already

And you're not even gone

I wanna call you

(I just dropped you home)

I wrote you a letter

(And i deleted it after)

No matter how small I write it

There's always so much more to say

I'm not sayin' it's a competition

All I'm sayin' is

I love you more than the bad days ahead

I love you more than the nights that we (agreed to move forward separately)

Oh, I love you more

There will be times when your heart will forget

So I'll say it over and over again

So you know for sure

Darlin', I love you

More than my (bad hirits) haha

That I take too far

You roll your eyes and then smile

'Cause you know that that's just who we are

I love you sooo much more. 🥹🥲

Nice song. Hehe

random relapse, este musings

you know 
there was a time when i wondered if i was good enough for you
if i was smart enough, beautiful enough,
if i was strong enough
When you got sick, i was so caught up trying to prove to you that i can do this, i will do that,
i never bothered to pause and think if you even thought/felt that i was good enough, or if im capable at all.
you said once that you deserve someone like me in this lifetime.
I wondered,  am i good enough for your new life?
when you chose to let go of what we had, when you chose to save me from whatever future pain i'd face,
i knew in my heart that it was the most selfless act of love, 
and despite the hurt, it made me love you more.
but there was also a small part of me that wondered, if a part of the reason you had to let go 
was because you thought i wasn't strong or brave enough to handle whats coming, to be a part of the life you're moving into...
i know i had no idea how hard things were and how rough they can get down the road.
maybe its a battle i wasnt ready or equipped to fight.
But i hope you knew that back then, i would've tried, and learned, and prepared for anything, 

if it means i can offer my hand to hold as you choose to fight your battle alone. 🥲

I was going through our conversations as i was looking for a specific phrase i reference to when we first started talking, but before i know it, i found myself backreading through those early convos. 🥲 Haha

Adhd jud cguro ko, its so easy for me to get sidetracked or distracted. Or maybe its just easy when it comes to you? Lol 😅

Opening up to you was easy. Being vulnerable with you was easy. Maybe that was why falling was the easiest. Char. 

For sometime, apart from missing you, i felt i missed the conversations too. Both seryoso ug kabuang. Hehe i missed your wisdom, your wit, your humor. Brayt2x mn gud ka gud HAHAHA the emotional intelligence is high and on point too. Char. 

But i'm glad katilaw ko balik sa imong brayt2x. Hahahaha i mean kastorya tag balik 😂

Praying for you always, even if we go days/weeks without talking. 😊

Eeeyyy! It's the 9th. 🥲

Could've been the 7th month. Hahaha

Just saying. 😊

If none of this happened and it really was just withdrawal, do you think we would've reached the 7th?

Hmm i think yeah. 

I believed we were both in it for the long run.

So yeah, in an alternate universe maybe we spent tonight on a videocall or movie on a shared screen

And then maybe tomorrow mubyahe ko after work diha. Maybe with flowers in hand, maybe dinner, maybe with a bag of clothes for the weekend somewhere. Hahaha

Ka funny ba imaginon ang what ifs. 

But i know man diha lang na kutob. Sa imagination.

Anyway, this date will always have a special place in my heart. Char. 

I will never regret asking you that night if there was a question you're afraid to ask. HAHAHA 

And thank you for your bravery. 🖤

Cause I loved you even before then. 🥲

I dreamt of you today.

It has been awhile since the last.

I dont why, maybe its because when i used to picture out being in places like this, i always thought the next times are gonna be with you.

Funny kay ning mga plot twist oy.

But i know you're enjoying your alone time

I know you're enjoying the simple moments and joys they brought you

I know these moments make you focus on yourself more 

They make you love yourself more.

They show you how much there's more to love within you.

You've spent the past years loving others more, putting others first. 

And im glad this time you get to see and experience whats its like to put you first.

And im happy for you.

I wont forgive myself if i mess that up.

Hmm maybe what im trying to say is, even if i wished im experiencing moments like this with you, i know you deserve to have your own moments for yourself more.

I guess that's love? Char. Hahaha 🤭

All i know is i just want you to be you, to love yourself more, and to be happy.

Kinsa man say ingon di tika kidnappon sa mga nxt tym? 😇😂

i wonder if you still visit this. lol
i wonder if makabasa pa kas akong mga kabuang hahaha

i know what i said in June

that i'll start to move forward

because that's what you want, that's what we both need? 

that's what's best? hmmm cguro.

but right now, im just glad you're back 

i'm happy how we are

i'm happy you are able to tolerate me ug akong mga kabuang hehe

i'm just glad to still be able to see and know some parts of your day and your journey.

i hope you don't get tired sa akong mga kabuang. hahaha

hirits are half meant HAHAHA 🤭😇

but for now, let's just leave it at that. lol

i miss you. char. hahhaha 😊

ps. whether you grow your hair or not, either one looks good on you. way joke. 😊🤙

Angas you is gwapoooo 🙈😂 HAHAHAHA but whichever mas confident ka and mas happy looking at the mirror and your selfies, that's what i'll vote for. ayeeeah hahahaha 😂😂😂

- still-calm-but-slightly-crazy-for-you 😇🥲