from the drafts, april 1.

i miss when it was difficult to get out of bed because you were in it.
instead, it is now difficult to get out of bed because i have to face a world without you in it."

"a relationship is about inventing your own language. you've got jokes, you've got the songs, you have this anecdote that's going to make you laugh weeks or months later. it's this language that you build. that's what you mourn for when you're losing someone you love. this language you're not going to speak with anybody else."

"i've tried imagining life without you, it breaks my heart, every single time."

"i don't want to forget, i want to be okay with remembering."

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I guess im finally okay with remembering. 🥹