Fifth 9th.

I read that "i can decorate my heart with distractions",

but the truth is I'm still going to feel what's missing. 

I didn't even need a second to think before it hits me.

I feel your absence everyday,

somtimes its almost like a sound i notice because of everything going on around me, but its there. 

I did try to decorate the empty spaces in my heart, in which you used to stay.

I tell myself "Im better off alone" but Im lying. 

Your absence is the most present feeling I have.

It comes in everyday, in full attendance ever since you left. 

And even if you started dropping hints that you'll be okay on your own, and that love no longer has a place in your life, it still doesn't make my love just fade or go away.

You became one of the most important person in my life in the shortest time, and loving you and being loved by you proved that time held nothing on us.

Time may not our ally right now,

but if i could, i would've done everything to make the most of it.

But i will continue to wish you well, pray for you, love you and whisper your name to our creator and all His creations.

I love you kaayo. 

Nothing changed that.

Ps. Its the 9th. I know it may not mean anything special anymore. But this day still reminds me of that moment we both realize we could be something good and amazing. 

Ive been missing you sooo much beh. 

There's not a day i dont think of you, or wish for you, or pray for you. 

I love youuu. And like this date, you will also hold a special place in my heart. 💛

If you ever need to reach out and you don't know what to say or how to come back, just send me a song. 💛