I was there. 🥹💛

I can't pretend that that wasn't real,

That what we had didn't mean as much as it did,

That you didn't love me as much as you did,

Because I was there.

I saw the way you looked at me. 🥺

It was love. 

It was quiet, it was calm.

But I felt it.

It was there.

So forgive me for not letting you go, beh.

For holding on to one of the purest love i've felt in this lifetime. 

I will get hurt, i know that. whether its soon or in 5, 10 or 20 years.

But don't you see? I get to love you. 

And that joy of loving you outweighs any pain of eventually losing you.🥺

So no, I can't pretend that I can ever unlearn loving you. 

I even talked to God about you.

So for now I'll wait, and I'll love you from afar, 💛

Until i get lucky again to hold you in my hand. 🥹