cant stop thinking,

the thought nga if simbako naay mga emergency mahitabo nimo

i realize and remember nga there's really no way for me to know

like di jud ko makibaw

and wa puy mupahibaw nako

kay i know im not family man

and di sad apil sa mga people close to your family

or close enough nga share.ran ug any info or update about you

so technically, just one of your hundreds of friends sa internet

just one of those people who knows you

and cares about you from afar

murag ana cguro ko nga category or friend group nabelong noh

and im not saying this from a bitter place man

just a realization lang jud ba..

kay of curs naa mn sad other people nga you've known longer

and people closer to you and your fam

maski gale si nisha cguro nga bestfriend nimo

will have no way of knowing pud whats happening with you unless mureach ka niya or sya diha nimo.

anyway, mao ra to sya..  realization lng.

esp after you said about if wa ka naadmit.

i cant imagine lng nga if something happens to you, 

i'd find out about it sa internet. 😭

hays di nalng nako hunahunaon or i entertain ang thought.

basta importante okay ka. 🙏

matog nako. 

im happy to hear from you. 💛

basta always here, one of your prayer warriors. 

hi.

i dunno if kita ka sa feed

naa secondhand serenade the other day sa waterfront

i know emo kau nga artist lol

but we both know his songs

and remember isa sa things we would've wanted to do was attend a concert

wa ko niadto but i wanted to invite you

nakibaw rako the day before

so i wasnt sure if mka go ka nga short notice,

or if you feel better since atong need kag transfusion.

so mao to sya 

la lang chika lng ko

i just thought it would've been nice, a night off

a break pd, me from work you from dia routine

kay i know focus ka nga magpadayun nga okay

padayun nga lig.on sa mga gidala,

heck, YOU know how strong you are

but i can imagine it must be tiring to be strong all the time

to be called and be praised for being strong by everyone

and to stay strong for everyone. 🥺

i know sometimes, we just want a small amount of time to rest, 

the kind of rest that even sleep couldn't fix,

and maybe to be free, even for an hour or a day,

to put down whatever load we're carrying.

hmm so mao to sya. i dont know how you're doing

but im always praying that you'll never run out of reasons to be here,

you inspire me stay grateful.

i wont remind you to be strong

but know that you can come to me if you ever need a space to be weak

i'll always take care of you, you know that...

I don't check in on you as often.

Not out loud.

But I still notice when the sky looks like your favorite color.

I still stop when i hear a voice or laugh that sounds like yours.

I still carry a version of you in my mind.

And my heart still flutters, my world still pauses for a second 

when you cross my mind.

So no, I dont check in on you as often

but it appears that every part of me still does.