a series of firsts: first message

You made me save this, when we both know i was gonna do it anyway. 🥹

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You are the one who lets me know from the very beginning, you a have genuine intentions with me.

You made me feel na you genuinely want to be part of my life and proves it with every single day that passes.

You are so giving and does not keep tabs of the things you do for me, not because you are expecting something from me in the near future. 

You message me throughout the day to check in on me because you care about my well-being.

You authentically learn who I am as a person. 💛

You know how to respect me.

You showed me the true definition of effort. 

You motivated me to do better in life because you know that relationships are not more than just falling in love. It's about inspiring each other to become better versions of yourselves day in and day out. 🥰

You are sooo patient with me and are guided by morals and reasoning. 😍 (maka amaze! as always!)

You know the smallest little details about me.

You don't make permanent decisions based on your temporary emotions. 

You are someone who understands that it's not about giving me the world, it's about making me feel like I am the only one in it. 

YOU are someone who touches my heart in ways I never thought were imaginable. 💛💛💛 I love you, beeeh. Keep this. 😘🥰

as you sleep

today, as i watch you sleep 

i know now i want to be the person who get to do that for the rest of your life

we've both been through a lot

some dark days we almost couldn't deal

the kind of hell we know too well

inspite all that, we both survived

knowing you, being with you

has showed me enough proof to believe two people can be destined to meet

you came at a point in my life where i was healing

at a place where i was ready to give it all again

and i came into yours when you were ready to try again

days with you felt like months,

and we even joked that our first month felt like 2 years!

you've opened up to me faster than you've opened up to anyone before

and getting to know all those parts of you made me fall in love with you more and more

today as i watch you sleep

i know now i want to be there for the good days and the bad

i want to be the arms you fall asleep in

i want to be the person you wake up to, morning, afternoon, or night

i know now i want to be there through every petty fight

every scary what ifs, every funny bits

you make me believe that even two scarred people can heal and laugh again

today as i watch you sleep

i know now i want to be there for the amazing sunsets and for the slow days 

i want to be there for the high and the sick days

i want to be there for every stubborn moments

i want to be there to remind you to eat when you also do the same because i don't

i want to be your rest, while you are the one who quiets the screams in my head

today as i watch you sleep

i know now i want to spend every possible waking moment with you

i want to be your safe place just as you are my peace

i want to love you and never stop showing you

today, tonight, and for as long as i have you.

i love you.

-the other yellow

a series of firsts: photo

 

first selfie you ever sent. ;-) hehe

you looked so young here. 

i was so surprised the second the photo appeared.

I didn't expect my reaction lol

i was laughing coz i felt some effing butterflies. HAHAHAHA

we used to call each other "friend"

but when you sent me this, i called you "crush". hahahaha

you went to your favorite church and cafe.

you gave me updates. naks. HAHAHA

I wasn't looking

 i wasn't even looking for the one when you came

not even an "anyone" or "someone"

i feel i've already been through enough pain and joy in this lifetime

that fear took a front seat this time.

some days when bad thoughts start to loom again

i ask, "is this really how it's supposed to be?"

"were there really reasons behind another dark day?"

but today, i'm starting to think there is,

in fact, one reason after another start to appear

is it a fluke that they started when you got here?

"Serendipity", a word i used to keep close to my heart

my young, hopeful, love-strucked heart

They said i wear my heart on my sleeve, 

at least that's what i used to believe

And i don't know if this has made it easier for them to tear it. :(

so again, i wasn't looking for anyone when you came

but i'm glad you din.

this makes everything else makes more sense.

you brought with you smiles, laughter, and hope.

and honestly, that means to me more than you know. <3

- the other yellow